Shalom Dear Rabbi! I`m a religious Jew learn Tora Baruch HaShem, Work in day time. But I do not have any love to Eretz Israel, even desire to visit it, (but of course I give Tzedaka to people from there). I have been living here for 10 years, for it is a big Trauma even to visit Eretz Yisrael, there is none of the Happiness I had in going to Eretz Israel. My wife wants me to visit Israel once a year for the Chagim. But I do not know how to deal with this problem?
In his magnum opus, Mishne Torah, the Rambam often, at the end of a halachic section, goes on to briefly explain the importance and meaning of a certain mitzvah. In the case of Eretz Yisroel, in the fifth chapter of hilchot melachim, the Rambam changes the order and before even saying that it is a mitzvah to live in Eretz Yisroel, the Rambam writes how the great sages loved the land, its stone and dirt, the Rambam writes of the spiritual benefit of living in Israel, and only then in halacha 12 does the Rambam actually say that one should live in Israel. I belief the idea that the Rambam was trying to convey is that in other mitzvot one may perform the mitzvah,a d only later develop an appreciatiopn and love of the mitzvah, whereas in the case of yishuv Eretz Yisroel it is crucian to develop appreciation of the land and its spiritual properties, for without this, living in the land is not sufficient. I appreciate that some people find Israel inhospitable for a variety of reasons. I suggest reading about the amazing history of Eretz Yisroel in our times, associating with people who have an appreciation of the splendor of life in E"Y, and trying, when ohn the next visit, to see the things in E"Y which make it truly a gift from Hashem. I do not know what specifically bothers you, and it may be that the issues are quite real. I bless you that you reach beyond yourself to strengths that will allow you to come to Israel with love and joy.